February 2010
14565.) I'm not afraid of telling you that I love...
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14566.) i want to die, i really do. you make me...
(via blogsecret) shit! Aha
Only two people know everything about me.
jaymieindecember:
And they’re the only who can say SHIT about what I do and say. Everyone else go suck my dick. Seriously SHUT THE HELL UP. You don’t know me. You know about me, yes. But you don’t know me personally. My best friend. One of the two who knows me best. So he can tell me if I’m doing something stupid, or doing something wrong. NOT YOU, OR ANYONE ELSE. Clayton. Yes, he figured me out...
hahah
I’m so wierd!!! xD
blah!
ur bullet went straight into my heart, it drained my happiness and filled it with hopelessness and sorrow, so much sorrow my heart has blackend and it’s pure red color faded away, as I said I love you, it prob entered ur ear and went out the other, everyday, whether it’s home, school, basketball, eating, playing video games, ur name crossess my mind and I put down wat i’m doing...
DON'T read me . I get enough shit as it is .
marininjaax:
I HATE HOW I GAVE MY HEART TO YOU .
And I fucking hate the fact that you fucking just ripped my heart out and fucking killed it .
You squeezed the life out of it. You ripped it into little pieces, drenched in black blood. My heart is lifeless. It’s broken. I’m broken. You killed me inside. I can’t love anyone the same way anymore. Is this what I get, for loving someone? Is this...
=]
ah im having all the sideeffects of da swineflu vaccine! :/ but happy i got sum shoes, mcdonald =), grammy awards, blah
January 2010
I'M SUCH A...
…ASSHOLE SHIT *_*
Fuking dreampt of fallin off a bridge WTF?!?
I dnt like fridays anymore Dx
Wen u fuk up, u pay the price! And it’s time I pay the price, also time this guy will pay the price too… With a fist across the face :/ wat have I done?
Ugh
Goddamn it’s killing me Dx it’ll all be worth it in the end…I hope…I gotta change mi taste hahahaha
yesssssss
hasnt been this happy in weeks xD but i feel as if im missing something again D:
FML
here comes the regrets, again… :/
I'm standing up....
….but falling down
Sigh
I’ve lost my mind and self control, I wake up hoping u sent me something, reality seems hopeless, my fantasy seems invevidable. I am done, wit this shit and this beating heart, I give up, idk wat I will do but I will stop my heart from being taken away every single freakin damn year!u r dead to me, u take everything I said 2 u bak Jealousy is easy, dying inside is easier…and comon now,...
Made Up Stories
heart-broken:
raeraeraphycp:
heart-broken:
the saddest thing for me was i trusted you yeah and mistake are now the innocence you played just go save it for the other guy unseen
i like stories :D
hahah want me to tell you some?
like i used to wen you were a kid :]
nah im ok, im jw for somethings O.O
Made Up Stories
heart-broken:
the saddest thing for me was i trusted you yeah and mistake are now the innocence you played just go save it for the other guy unseen
i like stories :D
damn, 21
shit i shouldnt of read those! bring bak mi emotions and how much i thought i meant to dat person, such funny times, such sad times, such loving times, every I Love You was l l l l l l l l
v v v v v v v
B u l l s h i t damn 1 whole day of trying and its hard as fuk :O !!FAILUREE!!
TY MAN TY
as i do my wish bit by bit i needa get rid of da place i bury my feelings and emotions in….tumblr…i shall not resent this choice as it makes me happier,i hope. goodbye tumblr :)
ahhhhhh
blaahhhhh ehhhhhh blechhhh ughhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhh fukkkkkkkk uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!! ur fuking killing me dude! shit! its annoying as fuk and idk y i adore this friendship and i wish i cud fuk off and u wont make this so hard for me. i noe wat u said, dont deny it, jus say it to me! ahhhhhh this is reconciliation…heehee its gay as fuk !
No.
marininjaax:
Today sucked balls. I wanted to go home. Nothing didn’t even happen. Wtf. I was alllll hyped up. And nothing happens. I guess she’s not ready. I guess I’m not perfect to anyone. I’m just a nobody. A selfish, ugly, crybaby-nobody. FML.
no ur not! =O wat happen? no one can be perfect
AHAHAHAHAHAHA
luiggilovesava:
raeraeraphycp:
All i gotta say is, AHAHA and i knew it! my perspective is right ^_^ luiggi im sorry i abandoned u lmao, shit , im sorry man i didnt belive you from the begining, i was blind, partially b/c im azn -_- heehee now we gotta make a decision and jus hope it works out…pffff hahahaha crazy ass’, and we wanted to go to that school hahaha RALSTON! dude y did u think dat...
AHAHAHAHAHAHA
All i gotta say is, AHAHA and i knew it! my perspective is right ^_^ luiggi im sorry i abandoned u lmao, shit , im sorry man i didnt belive you from the begining, i was blind, partially b/c im azn -_- heehee now we gotta make a decision and jus hope it works out…pffff hahahaha crazy ass’, and we wanted to go to that school hahaha RALSTON! dude y did u think dat wud make me sad or...
Sigh D:
We try to make others happy, it works, but do we ever put OUR own selves b4 others? Do we do something jus for urslef for once? no! I care more bout how some1 else feels and give my life to dat one person. Depression is jus one thing I’m feeling and it’s eating me bit by bit, day by day, it’s fuking up my life, my brain, my heart. I could of blown my brains out, but wat keeps me...
I hate ignoring everyone today.
jaymieindecember:
But I did. T.T Why would anyone talk shit about someone without knowing the whole story? It’s upsetting and disappointing to know how immature people can be about stuff like that. It’s like I have nothing left to say right now, but i Have lots of things to say, just nothing in public. So I’m still a little confused about transfering back to Aragon. I still don’t want to. But...
I think I'm:
jaymieindecember:
raeraeraphycp:
luiggilovesava:
but it’s gettng annoying and stupid! Correct me if I’m wrong, and u tried seeing ppl’s point of view of me for once and for u I’m a lazy annoying person, others a fag, from Jaymie an obsessive fag and sometimes a good person, sike Ha
raeraeraphycp:
-straight up retarded -annoying to some ppl -fucked up to ppl -lazy Filipino as Luiggi wud say...
I think I'm:
luiggilovesava: but it’s gettng annoying and stupid! Correct me if I’m wrong, and u tried seeing ppl’s point of view of me for once and for u I’m a lazy annoying person, others a fag, from Jaymie an obsessive fag and sometimes a good person, sike Ha
raeraeraphycp:
-straight up retarded -annoying to some ppl -fucked up to ppl -lazy Filipino as Luiggi wud say -obsessive...
I think I'm:
-straight up retarded
-annoying to some ppl
-fucked up to ppl
-lazy Filipino as Luiggi wud say
-obsessive fag
-sometimes hard to deal with
Sigh I gotta stop :/ it’s getting on ppl’s nerves I guess
bs
luiggilovesava:
raeraeraphycp:
luiggilovesava:
everyday i wake up with an enormous pain. . why do i keep myself thinking of that pain and not let it go? ..every action i do is worthless and so i have to punish my blunders. i got the people that make me happy but if i let my joy take over im going to want to test their loyalty and ruin our relationship. everytime joy takes...
bs
luiggilovesava:
everyday i wake up with an enormous pain. . why do i keep myself thinking of that pain and not let it go? ..every action i do is worthless and so i have to punish my blunders. i got the people that make me happy but if i let my joy take over im going to want to test their loyalty and ruin our relationship. everytime joy takes v over it just brings lamentation. ...
GOD...
…DAMMIT!
Hmm i wake up and it’s as if u still exist :/ oh well I give up c:
Ohyes
You are a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare =P
ah well after a month of relflecting, and finally getting a hold of my emotions, I have come to a conclusion, in which I was told I do this but didnt want to,I shall stop talking to her, whether she cares or not. Time to get a hold of reality and stop daydreaming even in school aha
Ah
Those 3 words I hear from your damn mouth ain’t worth shit, ain’t worth this pain, ain’t worth this suffering. Y dnt u addmit those words u tell me are bullshit and I can move on >:)
rain rain rain
Every drop of rain I stare at very closely reminds me of every failure And every goal I’ve lost, each one represents my falling emotions as it hits the ground, it cuddles up into a puddle as tho my emotions to r crumbling together and I am gonna grow more as a person :)
oh shiet
Cnt beleive I’m saying this, but I want my heart back Dx bring it bak x_x
Yes
I’m very lost in life now, I have given up in so many things now, not only my family but sports, nvr knew this “family” cud make such an impact on me, albert I swear, ur advice is outstanding but hard for me to follow it b/c SHE is amazing. Idk wat to believe dude, sry man I failed another person who has tried helping me :/
I'm done w/ this
this is too stressful and i cnt deal w/ this anymore, i wanna cry myself to sleep but dats retarded! noting seems to matter to me anymore, friends, u, ppl, LIFE is all bullshyt to me now….and FUCK YOU BITCH! IM NOT THE ONLY ONE DEALING WITH SHIT U FUK HEAD! GO BURN IN HELL FAG!
....
jaymieindecember:
raeraeraphycp:
im glad ur in my life, but i feel as if im a cussion for ur emotions, i jus help u wen u fall, but wen ur done u throw me away as if i nvr existed. my jealousy and anger rage in wen i see u w/ some1 else. i still wish it was u and me, but in reality, dats my fantasy. I jus dnt wanna be some1 im not for u, dat guy dat my friend hates pisses me off, his idea of...
Holy shit, you two are the most wannabe,...
jaymieindecember:
raeraeraphycp:
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HEYHEYHEY! i can change my ways!!!! =O
Not you xP
hahah well its coincidence b/c u described me XD
....
im glad ur in my life, but i feel as if im a cussion for ur emotions, i jus help u wen u fall, but wen ur done u throw me away as if i nvr existed. my jealousy and anger rage in wen i see u w/ some1 else. i still wish it was u and me, but in reality, dats my fantasy. I jus dnt wanna be some1 im not for u, dat guy dat my friend hates pisses me off, his idea of making class for him HELL will be...
Holy shit, you two are the most wannabe,...
(via jaymieindecember)
HEYHEYHEY! i can change my ways!!!! =O
14387.) I used to look forward to talking with you...
blogsecret:. This summons my feelings up very nicely :/// ah
It’s what what got me out of bed in the morning, it helped scribble some colour into the otherwise depressing, grey monotony that is my life. But now, something seems to be overtaking you, stealing from me your attention and your heart and now I’m afraid to even call you for fear that you won’t pick up. I’m glad that you’re moving on...
again and again
every day its getting more and more difficult to stop, i want my heart back XD normal but i feel i go through this every year…y does life hate me? is it karma? if it is, im sorry for shit ive done to you, im trying to change. hopefully i will fufill this…
14374.) You told me I had to do it for my own...
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:D
Over and over
Sigh this is being a annoying emotion in life, obsessive isn’t wat I wud call it, I’d rather say madly hypnotized and stuck in dat trans which I dnt get out of, whoever helps will fail b/c I fail at it HAHA
Geez
there’s always a reason for me to talk to you…even wen I try not to, it’s not ur fault but mine, even a gud friends help won’t get me through this, I guess I got to resort to wat I did after 8th grade and hopefully it won’t be as bad.
Sigh
I’m being selfish man, if u gotta do this u gotta do this, but I won’t give up on it dude, I’d rather take this friendship than a relationship rite now, and trust me dude, I will be happy as long as u guys r happy and jus cause ur not dere at track doesn’t mean ima be sad, WTF man I’m not weak! Aha yea
My world is crashing down with 3 words. U cant....
luiggilovesava:
Agh Dude I’m trying man! It jus kills me dude. I’ve had too much of this feeling…I’ll try to keep it together Ill try…
raeraeraphycp:
heart-broken:
Luiggi u actually mean alot to us! Ur an amazing friend and GF in avas case….u leave Aragon and ima loose my fuking mind! I’m loosing too much ahhh! :’(
luiggilovesava:
raeraeraphycp:
(via...
My world is crashing down with 3 words. U cant....
heart-broken:
Luiggi u actually mean alot to us! Ur an amazing friend and GF in avas case….u leave Aragon and ima loose my fuking mind! I’m loosing too much ahhh! :’(
luiggilovesava:
raeraeraphycp:
(via heart-broken)
I KNOW! it pisses me off and saddens me! :(
guys i swear…ull guys have each other..n we wont lose contact
but not you
FUK MY LIFE
I’ve lost too much and I can’t handle it! Friendships really dnt last forever and niether does love ! I hate this bullshit! Jus kill me now!